Happy Times Ahead !!!

Have you ever felt this excited?!?!

More to come later,, We're in a 'hurry up and wait' mode,

and I don't want to jinx anything!!!

No news is good news...?? Who believes that?

So, i haven't heard back from the hiring manager yet.... I'm trying my hardest to not worry about it, not obsess about it... But that is very hard for me to do!! I have been spending a lot of time thinking about this choice,,, hoping that the path will be clear, and I'll know the right thing to do... I'm also afraid he's going to call back and rescind the offer...

Old friends...

What is it about old friends? You can not talk to them for months, even years, and then when you do, it's like no time has passed at all..

I just had a 20 minute IM session with someone I hold closest to my heart... Probably haven't actually spoken to her in more than 5 years,,, dare I say 10?... But in the 20 minute session we got to the core of who we were to each other... It's comforting to know that there is someone out there who knows me so well... Knows me so well and loves me anyway! :) It seems as though no matter how much time goes by between 'visits' I always walk away feeling more balanced. Little bit of a sanity check, little bit of reinforcement to the self confidence, little bit of love...

I have never been a person who felt the need to have dozens upon dozend of friends, or what I view as acquaintances... I have always prefered to only have a few close friends, that I could invest in, trust in and have a deeper relationship with... This has left me sometimes feeling very alone, or confused as to why other people don't value a deeper more meaningful connection the way I do. I guess it's my security of self preservation that keeps most people out, and it's probably their security and self preservation that let more people in, just not as close...

For those of you that fall into this inner circle... Know how much I value you. You keep me balanced and sane,,, whether we talk every day or whether you are just the voice in my head that I hear when faced with some big decision....

(Photo by Kim Anderson, www.kim-arts.com)

Opportunity Update...

So I have laid the ground work.... Said there was no point beating around the bush, let's get down to the nuts and bolts of it... He totally agreed...

I told him my situation hadn't changed in the last 5 weeks, still owned a house, still lived in SC and was still interested in the job. I explained that I understood the situation our industry was in, and that I understood that the idea of working remotely was off the table; However due to the experience I was bringing to the job as well as the financial risk I was having to take by having to maintain 2 residences that I would need a 15% increase in pay... He didn't say no!!!!

Let's not get too excited yet... He said he would need to go work on some numbers and would get back to me next week... But he didn't say no!! So I figure I'm at least a full leg in the door, and found a decent starting point for negotiations,,,,

So...I'll keep you posted!!

Opportunity knocks...

OK,, So remember the job offer I agonized over about a month ago? The one in Florida, that i ended up turning down? Well out of the blue today, the hiring manager contacted me to let me know he would shortly be posting a Project Managers position,,and would I be interested !!!

It felt good the first time he offered me the job, unsolicited... But I'm here to tell you,, Feels GREAT the second time!!!!! I'm hoping this may mean I have a little more bargaining power... I'm looking at this as though it may be a move in the wrong direction geographically(as I want to get back to NC), but it's a huge move in the right direction professionally!! I was just thinking about it this past weekend, and how with the job market being so bad, it will be very hard for me to find a position that I am actually interested in as opposed to just finding something different than what I have. I have sent out resume after resume, with no results... And these are resumes that an HR rep helped me put together along with input from one of my mentors,,, So I'm trying to not get too ahead of myself and not too excited...

But it sure does feel good!! I'll keep you posted!

What's your oppinion of the debate? (you have to get all the way to the bottom to find this topic...sorry !

OK,, So I have had PTO since Friday, and have done absolutely nothing,,, Lots of plans,,, no apparent follow through,,, I have relished completely in the fact that I have had to be nowhere, no one was waiting on me and no one was coming to me for the answers...

What had I intended to do? Go to Hilton Head for a long weekend with a friend-she ended up not being able to go for various reasons; then, go to High Point for the weekend-I couldn't go for various reasons; then I was going to go through all my clothes and filter out all the things that I couldn't remember the last time I had worn them- didn't do it... went in and looked,, know mentally which clothes will be in which pile, but didn't do it; then, I was going to go to Home Depot and get some paint, to paint the entry way, and upstairs room-didn't do it, picked out colors, but didn't go; then I was going to go to Woodley's (great lawn and garden center) and pick out some inexpensive, colorful plants and flowers to brighten up my dying yard-didn't do it. Finally did get out and go to the grocery store, only to have a mild anxiety attack, so that I just about couldn't breath by the time I got back to the car... LOSER... Maybe it's time to change the koo-koo meds :) !!!

As I sit hear and try to think of what I am going to tell people 'I did on my summer vacation' so I don't sound too pathetic, I realize how long 6 days really is,, hell I could have gone to Disney World, shook Mickey's hand, and been back by now,,, but what did I do ? Nothing,,, I have got to get a life!!!!! There are so many topics I would like to vent about, talk about,, ramble about,,, but then realize I was dumb enough to tell a few family members about the blog, so I am now forced to filter myself,,, God knows, I can't keep up with this blog, let alone start another one just to be able to say what I want !!!!

So,,,, if any family members are reading,, would you let me know??!! May help reduce the cost of impending therapy if you're not reading!!!

I'm watching the debate while typing this,,, can't help but think that McCain is an angry old man,, can't hardly contain himself, and seems to honestly be more interested in name calling, mud slinging and talking about his opponenant than what his plans are.... God help us if he wins(although I think that's doubtful)... I'd love to hear what others think of the debate...

I'm a slacker...

OK.... So I know I haven't updated anything lately...Will do that his weekend,,, Does anybody read it anyway???