Feeling Good...

This is my new favorite song.... I must listen to it 10 times a day,,, When the caffeine runs out,,, and my hands are shaking so bad that another mug-o-coffee is simply out of the question, and being that my 'funny person' is for the most part permanently unreachable, this is what does it....

I've had all these fleeting ideas of fantastic posts... but I get started, and then after a few sentences, I realize I just can't seem to do the thought justice... so I delete, delete, delete... Maybe I need to get some koo koo meds or something to help me focus?!

The end all be all is this... I feel good... I had some type of epiphany several weeks back,,, This huge realization that I had allowed myself to miss out on so many good memories because I became so focused on the bad things that have happened...

Now let's get this straight,,, consciously I never thought I lived my life as the victim. Never thought that I let the negatives really effect or influence how I lived my life, how I viewed my life,,, never thought I let it effect how I viewed life in general.

And then it was like one of those V-8 commercials,,, I swear I actually think I felt the smack in the head. So the new leaf has officially been turned over. I am now in control (as much as we can be),,, And let me just say this... all of these people that I have reconnected with lately, have played a HUGE part in this realization... Not one of you, but ALL of you... in your story telling, and laughter and craziness you have helped me put away my glass-half-empty mentality and realize that my glass was way more than half full... It's frickin' fantastic... I am disappointed that it took me 40 years to get here,, but am so looking forward to the next 40!